IVF the next step ~ Ninewells Dundee

So we are still hurtling towards IVF, feeling somewhat out of control but somewhat in control now we have a start date.

We got our start pack through the post the second week in July, only three weeks after our initial appointment at Ninewells which I was very impressed with.

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Included in the pack was the Nasal spray Supercur I will be using this for 2/3 weeks from Day 21 of my next cycle to suppress my hormones. The information from the assisted conception unit says

Supercur is a nasal spray that suppresses the hormones controlling the ovary. This is referred to as down regulation.

Also in the pack was a treatment schedule

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At least this gives us something to plan for and we have been able to work out approximate dates for starting and the week of possible egg collection and transfer, which will help me to vaguely plan my caseload at work and plan for some time off. I’m not going to do anything about time off though until I see how I respond as obviously it depends on the first step going to plan to get the second step in place.  I still haven’t really figured out how I am going to manage work if I am honest, my line manager knows about the IVF and she will need to know when we are heading for treatment as my clinic is 2.5hrs round trip I will need to have time off to attend appointments, they are great though and have said I can have the time off with no issues.  My main issue will just be how to manage my caseload, especially if I have to do any extra hospital appointments/scans etc at the last minute which is highly likely.  I also would like to take time off for egg collection and between that and transfer date as my job can be very stressful I don’t want to be worrying about my patients and worrying about myself.  I am not sure though if I shoud attempt to book this as a holiday or to self certify for 5 days illness.  The issue with using holidays is the dates may change at very short notice and I’m not too sure how accomodating my work will be for that.  God I wish this was easier, you think that you have got over one hurdle to only be met with another and we haven’t even got to the hurdle that is the actual treatment yet!

Looking at all of this information has been a bit overwhelming, hence me not blogging about it for a while as I got my head around it and still now I can’t figure out how I am going to manage balancing work with IVF but I am sure that I will find a way.

Even though we have the pack, have the treatment plan, looking through it all, thinking about it all makes you think about how there are so many variables to even managing to get to egg collection point and that is scary. The control is being handed over to my body and science from here on in.  That gives me a little bit of relief in a way, no more counting the days waiting to ovulate on my own, checking my temperatures each morning, constantly on knicker watch, counting the days wondering if my period will arrive.  Although of course I realise that I will still be doing some of these things during IVF, it is a bit of a relief that most of the run up to it will be handled by the clinic.  After this long trying to conceive,  that feels very strange!

Claire xx

Weight Loss Wednesday

Not as good a week fitbit stats wise as last week as I’ve been working this weekend so missed out on a few of my long walks.

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I haven’t fully returned to Slimming World ways yet though, despite talking to myself about it every morning and telling myself today is the day I have probably only had 2 days where I actually stuck to it 100%.

I did still get a loss though which I am chuffed with.

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This weekend I have my sister visiting from Ireland so I am not expecting a perfect Slimming World week at all, especially not with cocktails planned for Saturday!

Claire xx

It’s the small things ~ June edition

July already! Here’s some of my small things from June.

20140701-075238-28358269.jpgThere was football sweepstakes.

20140701-075331-28411572.jpg First BBQ of the year.

20140701-075406-28446163.jpg Sleeping on knee Schnauzers (this never happens!)

20140701-075454-28494475.jpg Exciting/nerve racking books bought.

20140701-080018-28818550.jpg Job interview prepped for and completed.

20140701-080136-28896983.jpg A new job offered.

20140701-080206-28926104.jpg And a new job celebrated.

20140701-222129-80489393.jpg Queens Baton Relay watching.

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20140701-222309-80589646.jpg Temperatures Rising.

20140701-222349-80629335.jpg Tents camped in.

20140701-222417-80657904.jpg Gorgeous scenery admired.

20140701-222500-80700057.jpg Cakes decorated.

20140701-222555-80755303.jpg And a fun afternoon with 20 Schnauzers.

So that was June.

Claire xx

Weight Loss Wednesday

Wednesday weigh in time again!

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I managed a good amount of miles over the week which I am very happy about.

But…. there always seems to be a but recently. I still am struggling getting my eating back on track and am craving sugar like no ones business. Most days I have given into it and had bars of chocolate or nipped to the bakery (bad Claire) yesterday I had to work so hard at not giving in. I did manage it but I’ve no idea why I’ve been like this recently. I was hoping for a good loss after my 4lb gain last weigh in but that would require me not to eat the cakes! Anyway I did lose by some sort of a miracle.

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I really want at least another half stone or more off before we start IVF so I really better do something more about the sneaky treats!

Claire xx

Always holding onto Hope but……

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Image From Itty Bitty

The thing with Unexplained Infertility is that I don’t think you can ever give up hope. There’s technically nothing wrong with you, so why wouldn’t you get pregnant this month? But…..why would you this month when the last however many months you haven’t despite there being technically nothing wrong? This is my life, month in and month out, hoping it works this time, dreaming, wishing, praying, knowing there is no reason why it shouldn’t.

But… Also spending the month trying to be realistic, keeping the hope alive but not allowing it to get that bit too much that I actually believe that this month will be different, you see that’s just too hard. It’s a very fine balance this hope lark! I always want to have it because I mean really what is life without hope? But not too much of it that I get carried away and have myself convinced that it will be our month because when the pain hits yet again that it’s not it can all be just a little too much.

I know it’s wrong, but sometimes I do still wish that there was in fact something wrong, a real reason I could say ‘oh I can’t get pregnant because…’

But there isn’t, it’s limbo land and it’s a land I’m totally fed up with.

Claire xx

Weight Loss Wednesday

Making myself accountable after having two weeks off plan, eating and drinking…..lots!

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Oh dear, not good, not good at all. But putting it down here as made me stop and think, I need to get back onto it from today, now to give myself a swift kick.

One good thing from last week was the amount of miles my Fitbit clocked up. We were away camping for the weekend and the steps added up really quickly.

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So here’s to a healthy week.

Claire xx

Heading to Ninewells Dundee for IVF

Yesterday we set off in the car for the mammoth journey to the fertility clinic that we will be receiving our IVF treatment from. Our local hospital doesn’t offer IVF so they feed into one that does. Unfortunately for us the one they choose to pick is a 2.5hr round trip for us (I can already tell this travelling will be fun…NOT)

We will be looked after by the assisted conception unit at Ninewells hospital in Dundee and yesterday was our first visit after getting to the top of the waiting list surprisingly quickly. The unit itself is lovely, modern and bright and it has this lovely picture on the wall which is made up of lots of tiny pictures of babies that they have made possible. It was lovely to look at whilst we were waiting to see the consultant.

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We were called quite quickly to meet with the consultant in charge of our care, he seems really nice and he ran through what we would expect from them as a unit. I got weighed again (all fine and under bmi) and he ran through which protocol he thinks I will be on, though final confirmation of this will not happen until my bloods which were taken come back. This is because they are testing my AMHagain and dependent on the results of that the protocol and level of drugs they will use will be decided. He showed us the expected process and gave us a slideshow of how you move through your cycle, different pictures of the rooms used in the unit etc and the expected amount of times you will need to visit them in Dundee (five) He gave us plenty of time to ask questions and said that the maximum wait from now to starting will be no more than two months.

After meeting the consultant we then met with the Senior Charge Nurse, she did all my Observations, blood pressure etc and then took bloods, these bloods can take 4-6 weeks to come back and we don’t proceed any further with treatment until then. Once the treatment plan is decided they will contact me and let me know what protocol I will be on – long or short and if I need to take the nasal spray which will be posted out to me. She was really good and helped to make the visit quite lighthearted.

They suggested that I will be on their standard protocol which is a long protocol so from start to finish we would be looking at the cycle running around 6 weeks. All their injections come in preloaded syringes which will make it all the easier and hubby was able to breathe a sigh of relief that he wouldn’t be required to inject me!

So now we wait to find out when the big guns come out!!

C xx

Promoted!

This week has been stressful, I had a really important interview on Thursday for a promotion in my team and as the blog title tells you I got PROMOTED!

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I found out yesterday afternoon, I wasn’t expecting the call quite so early so was totally caught off guard when my big manager called. To the point that I thought I had been offered a different post with different hours! There were two jobs on offer, one Mon-Fri and one for the out of hours service, which is the team I work for now, covering weekends and public holidays etc. I got Mon- Fri!! I’m over the moon with that, no more 7 days on in a row :)

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I still can’t quite believe it, I never thought in a million years that not even five years after qualifying I have been promoted to a specialist nurse post. Amazing.

Who says Friday the 13th is unlucky?!?!

Claire xx

Weight Loss Wednesday

Wednesday comes round very quickly! Time for another weigh in day. My long dog walks added up to

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20140611-075231-28351648.jpg I still really love my Fitbit and even quite a few months later it still drives me on to walk that bit more each day, it’s been worth every penny.

Eating wise has been a bit hit or miss. I eat when I’m anxious and seeing as I not only have an interview this week but also our IVF appointment coming up you can guess I’ve been eating too much at times. I have managed to keep it under control enough to still get a small loss this week which I’m happy with

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I had wanted 2lbs this week and 2 next week to get to my own personal goal for IVF appointment but I doubt that will happen. Still though I am 11lbs under the weight they had set for me to join the list so I’m very happy with that!

C xx

Weight Loss Wednesday ~ Week 31

So I finally managed to get myself back into some sort of healthy lifestyle choices this week after my big gain of the last few weeks. I’ve been back out doing my long dog walks, managing to clock up.

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The Fitbit as usual as been running in the background all day and I’ve managed a nice

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The major thing this week has been to get myself back into the zone for eating, I had found I was allowing little sneaky treats to slip back in here or there when I had relaxed ‘because I was on holiday’ I’m sure any one trying to lose weight knows exactly how that feels! So this week saw me back to basics, writing it all down. I also saved my syns up during the week as I had lunch out, Friday, Saturday & Sunday! I’m back to not drinking alcohol though and I’m very pleased to report last weeks gain to be gone.

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Now I have two weeks to drop another 4lbs if I can to get me to my own goal for my initial IVF appointment…..

Claire xx

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