Less than a week to go until I start down regulating for our first ever IVF cycle and the anxiety is kicking in. I am a person who craves knowledge; I suppose it’s the need to be in control that takes over and having knowledge is having some control in my books anyway.

So with that I’ve finally started thinking about IVF and what it may mean to me. There are so many variables, not just the will it work or not but also the will the drugs effect me or not, down regulating appears to be no joke, you are suddenly attempting to switch off your ovaries and with that can come headaches, mood swings, extreme tiredness, hot flushes, low mood and even some reports of depression. A stuff of dreams…not! As much as you don’t want to think about all of this I need to, purely to know I can cope with whatever is thrown at me, to know I have thought about it really does help me even though this may not help others but that’s what makes us all unique isn’t it.

I think what is causing me most anxiety at the minute is the waiting, the unknown of what I’m getting myself into, the emotional side of IVF is the major hurdle in my view. You know that hopefully the effect of the drugs will only last a short while, that there is hope at the end that all this will result in a positive pregnancy test and eventually safe delivery of our baby.

But your emotions, they are a whole different story, happy, scared, anxious, cautious, positive, hopeful, low, strong to name but a few, swinging from one to another at the drop of a hat, never knowing what one is going to come next. Putting that brave face on, not only for others but for yourself but inside doubting your every move, second guessing yourself. It’s exhausting and I’ve no doubt it’s just going to get worse as we move through the IVF cycle. I need to acknowledge all this and by writing it all down it has really helped. I know that I have the strength to do this, no matter what the outcome is I can and I will get through the ups and downs of our first IVF cycle.

Wish us luck

Claire xx

5 comments on “Our IVF journey ~ Fear, Anxiety, Apprehension”

  1. I am wishing you all the luck. I am a success story – 4 rounds of IVF, 2 kids. My biggest piece of advice (not that you’ve asked!) would be to think positively & ignore the stats. And eat lots of protein. I know it’s hard not to obsess but try & chill – it really does make a difference. And drinking lots of water really helps with the drug side effects. It will be worth it. X

    • Hi, thanks for commenting and thanks for the advice. I’m happy to take anything that isn’t ‘relax’ lol luckily once I work through my anxieties I’m normally a very positive person so I’m sure I’ll get there quite quickly.

      Thanks for the tips on the protein and the water, I’ll make sure I do those! Xx

  2. Good luck beautiful lady. You can do this. We’ll be making that trip to the beach with a gaggle of kids in tow before you know it xxx

  3. I know this hasn’t been very joyous reading so far, but the positive message is that there’s plenty you can do to help yourself with these challenges, and to find your own way through IVF.

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